Before we get into the sparkle, let me just say that anxiety is a helluva a thing. I had a BAD anxiety day on Wednesday, and man, did it pull me under quick. Like I mentioned in this post, I sometimes have fleeting suicidal thoughts sort of out of habit (I can’t think of a better way to describe it), and that started happening because I was just.so.anxious. When I feel truly awful, this old voice in my head will start telling me that there’s a way out. Luckily, I have enough awareness now to go like, “Wait, what?! Where did you come from?!” and dismiss it. But I had forgotten just how horrifying an intense bout of anxiety can be. (My usual anxiety feels more like a nuisance than a WHY GOD MAKE IT STOP kind of thing.) People typically equate suicide and depression, but anxiety has certainly fueled my serious suicidal thoughts in the past, and I don’t think I’ve emphasized that quite enough on here.
This is all to say, be kind out there. You don’t know what random, seemingly benign, things are setting people off. I certainly didn’t see it coming on Wednesday! And I’m doing better now, whew! ❤️
ANYWAY, the sparkle!
On Saturday, one of my friends came over so we could start watching Dawson’s Creek. (Well, sort of. He’s seen it all, and I watched seasons one and two back when they first aired.) I forgot how much they threw into that pilot! Children out of wedlock, affairs, interracial couples, student-teacher flirtations… 1998 didn’t stand a chance! Also, even though it was about 80 degrees on Saturday, I really wanted a hot chocolate, and let me tell you, it was a fine accompaniment to the Creek!
My friend also brought me a gift! How awesome is this?! And he apologized for it not being Ocarina of Time! (I do love Link to the Past too though!) Get you a friend who knows your Zelda preferences!
Every so often, I just need some eye candy in my life, and so I get back on a Supernatural kick. I am usually firmly a Jensen Ackles girl (how is he so stupidly attractive HOW?!), but I am falling prey to Jared Padalecki’s giant puppy energy IRL and sad puppy energy as Sam. (Plus, he’s open about his anxiety and depression and I swear he once name-checked the DSM at a con, so what could be more attractive?!) The only problem with Supernatural is that I have no real interest in the supernatural, so I just end up watching videos from cons or the same handful of “fun” episodes (Bad Day at Black Rock, Tall Tales, etc.) that I’ve seen a million times. If anyone watches it, I need episode suggestions!
(Thank you tumblr!)
Lastly, it’s been almost a year, and the Queen deep dive continues! This time, I have two words for you: acapella Queen! I especially love the harmonies on “Killer Queen,” which I hardly noticed before!
That is… a lewk. 👀
What put the sparkle in your week?!
Hope you have a great weekend! xoxo
