Hi friends! Thanks for stopping by—I’m so glad you’re here! 😁
I wanted to do a post this week, but to be honest, I’ve been feeling anxious and sad (probably because PMDD). So it felt right to do a good ol’ “High Five for Friday”-esque post, to help me focus on all the stuff that is not making me anxious and sad! 🙌😍
IT’S RAINING MEN?
The most important thing I realized this week—OBVIOUSLY—is that you’ve just got to belt out “It’s Raining Men” when the opportunity presents itself. 😂🙌 I barely leave the house these days, and I def forgot how much fun it is to drive on an empty highway blasting music. What a delight! This definitely put some pep in my step on Sunday (along with a trip to Target, of course). 10/10 would recommend.
ALL THE WAYS TO SAY
Dude, I’m obsessed. If you like cards/art featuring lots of beautiful plants, then this is the Etsy shop for you. My second order from them arrived last week, and this is now my phone background! 😍 (Please, give me all the plants I can’t kill!)
IT’S RAINING MEDS?
I’m feeling very thankful for my psych nurse practitioner this week because a.) well, I just saw her last week lol and b.) we’ve made some very helpful changes over the past six months. We’re both pretty conservative, but after a summer of depression + bad anxiety attacks + her literally being like “I’d just like for your antidepressant to be doing more” (SAME, GIRL.), it was time to change things up. And doing so has made such a positive improvement overall. I just told her last week, “I feel like this new medication raised my consistent low to a more tolerable middle.” That’s really all you can ask for, right? 😍
Hats off to Timmi for sending this to me and making me cackle. BIG MOOD.
Therapy
Truly a godsend always, but I also feel like therapy has become vital in a different way as I approach my ninth (!!) year of it. Namely, therapy is feeling less like an extension of school, where I must do all the assigned reading and journaling and breathing (BOO) and be perfect. It has instead become a place to… feel. 😵 To cry and be scared and reconnect with childhood parts. I have indeed been feeling a looot of old, childhood stuff over the past year.
Luckily, my current therapist is very calm and encouraging of any feelings that come up for me—so much so that I’ve started to channel his calm acceptance between sessions. And, honestly, drawing on this internalized voice of, “It’s okay to feel whatever you’re feeling, and you’re not alone” has been a freaking game-changer. Telling myself that it is OKAY to feel whatever I’m feeling is calming and makes me much less apt to bolt from my inner children when they start “screaming.” ❤️
Therapy is wild, man. In the beginning, I wasn’t even aware that I mostly functioned behind this “good girl” perfectionist persona, and now, these days, it’s like the real, messy, whole person behind that is emerging?!? WILD.
POSITIVELY PRESENT
The downside of having Friday morning therapy is that then you have to go and work for eight hours. Enter Positively Present! Her bright affirmations are great in general, but they are definitely what I needed after therapy last Friday, particularly this one:
