I like to keep these posts as sparkly as possible, but it also feels weird not to speak honestly about how I’ve been feeling, so here we go. On this week’s edition of the Grief Emotional Rollercoaster, we made stops in Numbness Knoll and Depression Downs! FUN! Basically, I just want to be snug in my bed watching Supernatural con videos. But I had done a ton of feeling last week, so maybe it’s natural to feel burnt out after something like that? On the good news front, the suicidal thoughts have been almost nonexistent (hooray!), and I came to several conclusions about them: a.) they’re just thoughts—I don’t have to believe them or get worked up about them and b.) I know I’m not going to act on them even if I do have them.

You know what has been bringing me genuine joy amidst the numbness? Blogging! So let’s get into this week’s sparkle:

On Saturday, I went to Ulta and got a mini-facial at a Tula event, which was so.nice. I got a lactic acid treatment, and though I was legit scared for my sensitive skin, it went well, and my skin felt incredibly soft afterward! Bonus that Timmi texted me during my facial, which means I got to say, “Sorry I missed your text, I was getting a facial!”—probably the bougiest thing I’ve ever said!

Later that night, I lit this candle for the first time! It smells sooo delicious and pairs well with the cooler weather that we’re suddenly getting!

Pops was around on Sunday, so we went to the mall together! Aww! I love my dad, but we do live together, so we can drive each other nuts at times, haha. But Sunday was such a fun little outing! And, you guys, I DIDN’T BUY ANYTHING! (It was just one of those times when everything looked ridiculous or didn’t fit blah blah.) Even though shopping was mostly a bust, we had a delish lunch at The Cheesecake Factory, and I got to show Pops around some of my favorite stores at the mall near work, which isn’t something I usually get to share with people.